Atheists in church

[Spongebob]

I had doubts about the existence of god but didn't consider myself atheist as a teenager.  After all, how can one have faith without doubt?  I was pretty sure Christianity was myth, though.  That's one thing Baptists don't consider when emphasizing bible study to youth:  the reader concludes "this is fiction."

I went to church anyway.  It was a chance to play, and my grandmother would drive up from El Dorado now and then to see me.  When I would visit her in summers, between college semesters, I would go to church with her.  Always nice to see the El Dorado girls.

I go to funerals and weddings.  A few times, I escorted the dish and her mom to mass.  Never ate the cracker.  But go to church on my own, for me?  Got better things to do.

I continued to attend and even joined a Methodist church years after I had decided I no longer believed.  Perhaps I thought I might learn something and rekindle the flame.  Eventually I had to stop attending Sunday School (why do adults attend SS anyway?) because of a teacher who was just teaching extremely fundie stuff.  After that I've only occasionally attended for various reasons.  I sat through a particularly painful sermon several years ago at a Baptist church where the message was basically homosexuality is a sin and homos are going to hell.  Will never set foot in there again.  So maybe the answer to my question is it just isn't worth it.