[Serious] Are you in therapy?

[zwanzig]

Have been, after the death of my father. Saved my life.

Boru

I'm not necessarily in threat of losing my life(not at the current time, anyway) but the function of my life and relationships is definitely affected by this bitterness. Everyone around me offline is either Christian or Mormon and although my family and I have agreed not to argue or try to convince each other of either side to preserve our relationship, I find myself occasionally triggered by things they say and assume based on their religious views. Most of the time it's political but their views are informed by their belief in a God and I find the entitlement and taking for granted of Christian superiority to be aggravating. I just can't help myself sometimes and it's been a dog with a bone situation a couple times in the past 3-4 months where I feel badly once I realized how I've been behaving towards folks I love. And I get triggered here and at the other place all the time when certain arguments are made or aspects of belief come up.

I just think even a year past, possibly I'm still way too sensitive and might need to talk through the core issues(my victimization, the brainwashing I went through, the lingering guilt that feels pointless but is still fucking there, etc.), rather than beating up on loved ones and internet strangers.