Roe v. Wade is gone.

[arewethereyet]

Let's talk about being the child of a woman who doesn't want you.

My mother married at 16. No, she was not pregnant. She had me at 17. Yes, she was married to my father.

Her skills as a parent consisted of keeping me alive. Mind you, my great grandmother pretty much took care of me till I was two so that was a plus.

She was physically and verbally abusive. There was never a time that I was good enough. She wasn't too bad till I reached my teens, then she outright hated me. She blamed me for stealing her youth. For being the reason she didn't graduate from high school. The reason she didn't go to proms or homecomings, in fact, one year she locked herself in her room when my date came to pick me up. She signed the permission slip for me to try out for cheerleading because she said she knew I wouldn't make the squad anyway.

Once I hit my teens she turned dad against me and took any opportunity to rile him up so he would beat me. On one occassion she stood there as I was on the floor being kicked in the head and the ribs by dad saying...and I quote..."Don't kill her Fritz, I want to kill her too, but you can't kill her.

I have since found out about lies she told my kids about me...especially my oldest. Grudges and hard feelings have been held that I knew nothing about for decades. Mom had already alienated me from other family members, including my siblings.

I grew up wondering how anyone could possibly love me when even my mother could not.

Unwanted kids don't necessarily get a new family that dotes on them...before dad died he revealed that mom had never wanted children. That explained a lot.

Not everyone who can have a child, should have a child. It's really that simple, and that complex.

Choice is important.

This reversal of Roe really pisses me off on numerous levels.