Is the suffering worth it

[Ahriman]

It's complicated. You would know if you had seen what I've seen.

You haven't suffered a day in your life. At least not compared to me.

You can always find someone who suffers more than you. It's not a game. "Suffering" is inherent to life, and the types of suffering and the degrees of it vary across people, cultures, and time. We can play a game where we try to out-suffer the other to determine who has truly had it worse, or you can drop the idea entirely.

I'm confused about your "shame" posts. What is your definition of shame? Why would you enjoy feeling shameful?

It's a sexual thing. I get off on the idea of being ashamed, in a sexual context.