Do people just naturally want conflict

[Nanny]

So do you no longer believe in freewill?

That aside, I can appreciate the difficulty in changing feelings about something.
But if you don't believe pleasure is irrelevant then all you have to do is type a post here saying, 'I think pleasure is relevant.'  It's not about your feelings, it's about what you assent to.

If, of course, you do believe that pleasure is irrelevant, then that's a different issue.  But then the issue isn't really one of you not being able to imagine an alternative because of your upbringing, the issue is that you hold to an opinion for whatever reason (regardless of its provenance) and we simply disagree.

Free will means freedom to act, to me. What's inside of my head, is not something I control.

Everything you experience happens inside your head.