good morning good afternoon and good evening ladies and gentlemen
I could not believe such thing like atheism.Free thinking exist.since i was in high school my favorite 2 classes was Philosophy and Religion ( Islamic ) and these 2 totally dont get along with each other.the teacher in my philosophy class tells me to think Logically and then there are moments in my religion class makes me think.Does really this fairy tales make sense in my mind?!?!?! but back then i was so brain washed.i used to say its god to every unanswered question pop in my head every single thing was so simple to me and they tells me the Koran is the book of god since i was in my early ages,and NOTHING Changed since 1400 years ago meanwhile there is 2 different kind of Muslims one sunni and the other is Shia and they are fighting each other for centries for silly things that happened 1400 years ago.specially in my country we have 2 of them by 50/50 so as a kid i see myself in the middle of a mess.I was so confused during my childhood.there is teacher friends who follow this way and there is my faimlly and other friends in this way.each of them *SECRETLY* tell their brain washed kids that the other and the rest of the world will burn in hell.and the kid asks Why they will burn in hell ? and the mother answered..ITS IN THE KORAN.its so sad when i look at my childhood.god was everything.i mean really.I dont know about other religions but for the last 20 years of my life ( which is the overall wink wink ) i used to call god for almost everything let me give you the list that i actually remember ( Entering bathroom.Before eating.bed time.Wakeup time.before riding ( anything ) ,taking shower, even switching the car on) we even have god to every speech or comment.its so silly whats happening in arabian culture.but i have hope in that culture if my arabian mind realized all that bullshit.hopefully there will be cultural revolution soon
anyway.back to my story,i dont even remember where i was but anyway,last summer.Summer of 2011....I ** DISCOVERED *** Bill Maher in his movie religulous despite the comedy in that movie.my brain was going insane watching this movie.as Arabian who didnot open up in this vast crazy world.this was something extremely new to me.I realized that all these silly things in Islam is actually very similer to other religions.Bill maher made me realize that there is NOTHING special about my religion and that opened many questions in my head.like am I in the right religion ? why we have so many religions ? What if i am wrong !!..such questions that makes me tired mentally.It was really tuff time in my life until i watched richard dawkins documentaries and that changed my life forever.everything about evolution made sense in my brain.my brain rested in smooth peace mode after knowing richard dawkins.I also read his book ( guess which one !! ) which even made more sense to me.I realized after all these wasted years that selfishness.angriness and the Mercilessness in our human race is the reason why all this fear of religion we have and the reason why we didnot get over it since centries.its so sad and true
I am deeply sorry if i ruined your evening with this post i still have so many things to share but I just wanted to share my thoughts and my life with you. since i live in middle east ( One of the gulf countries ) i will keep my personal details away from Public Forums for safety reasons.all i can say is i am engineering student who lives lonely in his Cave.and who is different then most of people around him !.This is my first athiest/sharing thoughts experience and i am glad to share it with you guys.
Thank you for your time
I could not believe such thing like atheism.Free thinking exist.since i was in high school my favorite 2 classes was Philosophy and Religion ( Islamic ) and these 2 totally dont get along with each other.the teacher in my philosophy class tells me to think Logically and then there are moments in my religion class makes me think.Does really this fairy tales make sense in my mind?!?!?! but back then i was so brain washed.i used to say its god to every unanswered question pop in my head every single thing was so simple to me and they tells me the Koran is the book of god since i was in my early ages,and NOTHING Changed since 1400 years ago meanwhile there is 2 different kind of Muslims one sunni and the other is Shia and they are fighting each other for centries for silly things that happened 1400 years ago.specially in my country we have 2 of them by 50/50 so as a kid i see myself in the middle of a mess.I was so confused during my childhood.there is teacher friends who follow this way and there is my faimlly and other friends in this way.each of them *SECRETLY* tell their brain washed kids that the other and the rest of the world will burn in hell.and the kid asks Why they will burn in hell ? and the mother answered..ITS IN THE KORAN.its so sad when i look at my childhood.god was everything.i mean really.I dont know about other religions but for the last 20 years of my life ( which is the overall wink wink ) i used to call god for almost everything let me give you the list that i actually remember ( Entering bathroom.Before eating.bed time.Wakeup time.before riding ( anything ) ,taking shower, even switching the car on) we even have god to every speech or comment.its so silly whats happening in arabian culture.but i have hope in that culture if my arabian mind realized all that bullshit.hopefully there will be cultural revolution soon
anyway.back to my story,i dont even remember where i was but anyway,last summer.Summer of 2011....I ** DISCOVERED *** Bill Maher in his movie religulous despite the comedy in that movie.my brain was going insane watching this movie.as Arabian who didnot open up in this vast crazy world.this was something extremely new to me.I realized that all these silly things in Islam is actually very similer to other religions.Bill maher made me realize that there is NOTHING special about my religion and that opened many questions in my head.like am I in the right religion ? why we have so many religions ? What if i am wrong !!..such questions that makes me tired mentally.It was really tuff time in my life until i watched richard dawkins documentaries and that changed my life forever.everything about evolution made sense in my brain.my brain rested in smooth peace mode after knowing richard dawkins.I also read his book ( guess which one !! ) which even made more sense to me.I realized after all these wasted years that selfishness.angriness and the Mercilessness in our human race is the reason why all this fear of religion we have and the reason why we didnot get over it since centries.its so sad and true
I am deeply sorry if i ruined your evening with this post i still have so many things to share but I just wanted to share my thoughts and my life with you. since i live in middle east ( One of the gulf countries ) i will keep my personal details away from Public Forums for safety reasons.all i can say is i am engineering student who lives lonely in his Cave.and who is different then most of people around him !.This is my first athiest/sharing thoughts experience and i am glad to share it with you guys.
Thank you for your time
