Actually, I can't relate to you on the power Christianity has over you, but I can relate to the mental illnesses. I suffer from severe depression, although the past two years I have learned to manage it quite well. I also used to suffer from social anxiety quite badly, but I have learned how to manage that as well.
One thing to remeber is that even though you see religious symbolism in your psychosis, religion is most likely not the cause, it's just what your psychosis manifests itself as. In other words, religion doesn't cause psychosis, but it can make existing psychosis extremely bad. You seem to have already recognized the difference between reality and your psychosis, and from what I know about these things, that is a huge step. Keep fighting the good fight, and remember to use the rational part of your brain as much as possible.
Oh, and welcome to the forum.
One thing to remeber is that even though you see religious symbolism in your psychosis, religion is most likely not the cause, it's just what your psychosis manifests itself as. In other words, religion doesn't cause psychosis, but it can make existing psychosis extremely bad. You seem to have already recognized the difference between reality and your psychosis, and from what I know about these things, that is a huge step. Keep fighting the good fight, and remember to use the rational part of your brain as much as possible.
Oh, and welcome to the forum.
Even if the open windows of science at first make us shiver after the cozy indoor warmth of traditional humanizing myths, in the end the fresh air brings vigor, and the great spaces have a splendor of their own - Bertrand Russell
