zentor Wrote:I been in therapy and medications since 16!! I'm 23 now...noothings helping even they change my meds...
I'm not bipolar myself; I am unipolar. I have, just like you, been in therapy and on medications since I was sixteen. I'm 32 now, and only recently, within the last 2-3 years, did I finally gain enough control over my depression so that the majority of the time I am not depressed. It can take long periods of time to mature enough and learn enough to truly control mental illness.
The worst part can be when you start showing a little progress, and then life kicks you in the face leaving you no better off than when you started. I suggest doing some reading about how to control you emotions, and above all, never feel as if there is no way out. There always is, and hope that things will change is your most powerful weapon.
(P.S. Worrying about why god would do this to you isn't going to help the matter. It just distracts you from what you should be concentrating on. Focus on getting better, then deal with the god issue.)
Even if the open windows of science at first make us shiver after the cozy indoor warmth of traditional humanizing myths, in the end the fresh air brings vigor, and the great spaces have a splendor of their own - Bertrand Russell
