How has atheism changed you?

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PROS: My de-conversion has been a relief because I was taught about Hell fires. I feel like my life belongs to me rather than a supernatural deity. At the time of my de-conversion, the interest in anti-theism motivated me to try harder in relevant classes like philosophy, biology, and medieval history. Watching and reading content from Sam Harris, Richard Dawkins, Christopher Hitchens, and eminent public skeptics led me to internalize aspects of their speech and speak better. (Good speech is very good for job interviews!) Participating in online forums (and YouTube comments) like this turned me into a better writer.

CONS: There is probably a small spark of hope in some areas that died. Thinking there is a chance of Heaven can be nice. I am a bit of an outcast in my family when it comes to religion.