Maybe I never was a Christian?

[System of Solace]

So when judgement day comes, even though I am a sinner and no better than anyone else on this planet

What did you do? Or did you just think sinful thoughts? Correct me if I'm wrong: God prohibits even a sinful thought. This puts the Christian in a form of submission for his entire life. He/she will never be good, he/she will always be an evil sinner. He/she needs Jesus or he/she will plunge straight to eternal torture and damnation created by God for maybe 50-100 years of a "sinful" life. In fact, you could live a live only caring about the well being of others and still go to Hell. Fuck, supposedly even newborns who die from birth complications, aborted babies, and children who die at a very young age never truly "accepted" Jesus. And everybody apparently lives every second of their live in sin, so.....they are pretty fucked.