Do you control what you believe?

[naimless]

If I could control what I believe to suit myself, I would not be an atheist.

I feel like I should send you a cake with a file in it. So sorry to hear that atheism is such a prison for you. Perhaps feeling as though you are being truthful with yourself is even more important to you than the comforts of theism?

I don't tend to trust people who claim to know the truth, and that includes many atheists. Those who claim to seek it I'm more inclined to be on the same wavelength with, regardless of religious status.

I know a lot of atheists that say I'm agnostic because I don't claim to know the future. In other words, they are 100% sure the belief they hold is true and will be true in the future.

I'm only 100% sure every belief I have encountered so far is currently not objectively true. That is to say, there is no universal truth in the concepts of deities I have experienced.

However, the same goes for experiencing other things, like drugs. You can take heroin and then decide after the experience that it didn't contain a relatively true version of the events that were happening.

I'm only fairly sure that people, if they are still around, will probably one day look back and laugh at what we currently consider free-thinking, or atheism, or truth - just like how many people here laugh at the religious beliefs people held in the past and may still hold.