Top 10 Reasons Why Jesus is Not God

[Mystical]

Struggling with it? Sure. I'm angry, actually. I'm upset that I had to get to the point of death to find out that heaven isnt real and that all that willful martyrdom tricked others into thinking that there was. At least now when I die if I'm aware of it when I do, I wont be scared out of my mind with the thought of what is or isnt to come. At least I wont live my life with the expectation that what isnt done in this life can be done in the next. I dont cry about my ailments in the shower to that song "I'm coming home." Not sure where the entitlement idea sits in relation to me unless I failed to communicate here, which happens. To be clear though: I never thought I deserved anything, fr0d0. that was the problem with me. that is why I turned my head the other way when I was wronged. that is why I forgave those who never apologized, that is why I didnt question my impoverishment. that is why I gave every cent I had to others: because I felt they were more deserving in gods eyes, since I was his and what was mine was his. The reason i wanted to do doctors without borders was because I believed it was the path he showed me was that way. Personally i wanted to be a veterinarian and living in Africa wouldve been extremely difficult for me with the symptoms of disease I'd been living with my whole life. And yes I realized that that probably wasnt the path he had in mind for me. back when god existed in my mind. I was so undeserving I put other peoples needs above mine and that ended with unhealthy relationships in friends and family. I had absolutely no self worth; i would've died at any time for anyone. Anything I could do to improve someones life I DID in the lords name, mostly anonymously. I didnt care about having things I needed, and I certainly didnt feel entitled in any way for anything from god. until I opened my eyes and realized that he isnt there, and asked for him to show me in any way that he was. Mister Drew I have a reply for you too, just not tonight..