think my beliefs have changed again :S what am I now?

[Zen Badger]

first please don't judge me for what i write, I'm a pretty open person and just saying what I honestly feel/believe and not trying to offend anyone.

But before in highschool i was super christian, then i became athesit when i got frustrated with how crap works in life.

then i became like liberal universalist christian where i believed everyone goes to heaven after they die and god loves everyone and gotta focus on being a good person, but now after being treated like crap by lotta people im more pissed off and kinda want some people to go to hell :S

So basically now, I believe theres a God, but I feel like he doesn't give 2 craps about our prayers and in the end will only do what he wants. But I kinda also believe in karma and doing good things, and there being a hell and I want everyone that I hate to go to hell, though not for eternity, just for a good amount of time then just stop existing all together, if that makes sense.

So what should I call my self? Theist? Deist? God-is-a-jerk-i-just-want-everyone-i-hate-to-go-to-hell-ist?

You don't need to wear a label, that is for the sheep.

And it will take you a long time to work shit out, probably your whole life.

But that's ok, the journey is always more interesting than the destination.