(August 30, 2013 at 5:37 pm)Lemonvariable72 Wrote: I feel embarrassed that I used to be a christian. I also I feel jealous for those that were never in a faith. Is there anyone else that feels this way?
Absolutely! For 16 yrs I went to services every Sunday, joined children's and young adult groups, etc. My mother was even a Sunday school teacher so I heard it at home, too. I remember being 5 yrs old and my mother telling me that Jesus Christ was going to return. Boy was I excited...more excited than if Santa, the Easter Bunny, and the Tooth Fairy wouldve all been invited to my birthday party. I remember the wonderful magical stories we were told every week...The creation, the flood, the exodus, daniel and the lions den, david and goliath, the resurrection...
As I got older all that magic faded away as I actually started reading the bible that was given to me as a gift from the pastor on the day I became a confirmed member of the church. They told me to read it...I blame them. I read every disturbing, violent, sickening, and contradictory thing in that so-called holy book. My whole (fantasy) world came crashing down.
I have a child of my own now. I don't force him to go to church. One of his friends is the son of a pastor. His friend tells him about his views...or should i say the views of his father because hes certainly too young to be thinking this way for himself. My son dismisses them as silly. I wish I would've had that kind of sense when i was his age.
