Thanks for the thoughtful comments guys. I'm still very depressed, and I'm still not convinced this was a sign of god. I've had this cat since I was in elementary school (college now) and he's been a big part of my life. I know for a fact that he didnt just run away. The past year of his life, has probably been the best one, he's generally such a happy cat, and doesn't like staying outside too long (we let him outside to go to the bathroom and wander around but he always has found his way back)
I just really hope that he's okay, and not dead T_T
Now I just need to find a way to forget about him and move on with my life. It's so hard though. I'll be distracted by something else, or doing something else, but the moment im stuck inside my head, I'm missing him. Every day, whenever, at any moment in the day, when I get home, I'm immediately in a horrendous state of depression. Usually hes there to great me, but no more.
I just really hope that he's okay, and not dead T_T
Now I just need to find a way to forget about him and move on with my life. It's so hard though. I'll be distracted by something else, or doing something else, but the moment im stuck inside my head, I'm missing him. Every day, whenever, at any moment in the day, when I get home, I'm immediately in a horrendous state of depression. Usually hes there to great me, but no more.
