(November 18, 2013 at 7:35 pm)Zazzy Wrote:(November 18, 2013 at 6:59 pm)Ring0 Wrote: Well... I used to use prayer to help me deal with my paranoia. I have extreme paranoia of my friends/family leaving me. This paranoia wasn't caused by anything bad in my childhood, it was just there. I was diagnosed with ADHD and OCD, as well as General Anxiety as a child, and was a hoarder for a good portion of my childhood until I got help. I used to pray to my God to help me cope with it, and I truly believed that he would be there to help me. But since I got into science and started watching documentaries on stuff that interested me, and started actually reading the bible, I figured out that what I believed in is a huge pile of horse crap. When I went to my parents for some advice, my mom lost her mind about it and is suffering depression because of me choosing to be an agnostic. My dad is okay with it, as he is a rationalist and he truly doesn't care most of the time. Sorry that I've rambled. If there's anything I haven't answered, tell me and I'll reply with more if I can.Thank you for telling me this. I don't have much to offer you, since I have never experienced such a process. But I can imagine it would be scary, isolating, and frustrating.
I hope you are actively pursuing treatment for your paranoia and others issues. I myself have some mild OCD which I can mostly manage without meds, but it's a really annoying disorder- I look at it as a separate person inside of me rather than as part of myself (and no, I don't have multiple personality disorder).
One more question: is residual belief any part of your problems? Are you suffering from thoughts that you might be wrong about being agnostic? Or have you firmly accepted your agnosticism and are just upset about being fooled for so long and upsetting your family? I guess I'm asking if this is still a process, or if the process is essentially over and you're just dealing with the aftermath.
It's still a process. I still don't know just yet in my opinion.
