Yeah, sounds like you're leaning toward deism, but true deism is believing that God doesn't interact with the universe in any way. So you've probably just taken on the idea of a god which does interact with humanity but isn't affected by prayers or pleas for help.
But basically, it's a free world, believe what you want. It neither breaks my arm nor picks my pocket.
But basically, it's a free world, believe what you want. It neither breaks my arm nor picks my pocket.
Christian apologetics is the art of rolling a dog turd in sugar and selling it as a donut.