I have a few questions to atheists, before I become one.

[My imaginary friend is GOD]

Thanks a TON for all the replies. I am extremely surprised that there are not only many active people here, but really cool, friendly and ready to answer all questions. futilethewinds-Haha it's so funny that my knowledge of OCD was so limited, it was that I believed that the question about the existence of the God is what really the problem was. Will definitely read some more about it. About the hypnosis, will try it for sure, I really need to reduce my anxiety since I am in this state for a whole day :/ As for the other replies-thanks a lot for the warm welcome, you definitely made me feel much more comfortable since I know that there is a huge community here, which can answer my questions without hate. The reason why I don't want to believe in God and want to convert to an atheist is because whenever the question about his existence comes on my mind, I just can't answer it simply because I haven't given my own, personal answer to it. That's why I am so anxious and so wanting to learn learn learn, so I can, at some state of my life, stop believing in any given deity and at least stop questioning myself for this.

Just make sure you get a GOOD hypnotist, because there are tons of scammers out there. Getting a referral from your regular psychiatrist, psychologist, or counselor would be the way to go.