Thanks a lot for the other replies guys. I would want to make some things clear from them:
As for this, I am quite sure that the whole OCD thing was born from the rituals started by my beliefs. What I mean is that I started praying, then continued inventing all those kinds of rituals only because I was scared if God would punish me by various ways.
Well I can't stand believing in God. I can't stand wondering if I will go to hell if I don't do this, or do that. I want to live a God-free life, without worrying for my afterlife or all those kinds of things. Problem is is that I am so obsessed with the "God watching me every single moment", that I am forcing myself to do all those kinds of rituals to please him. Whenever I read something about atheism, and I start seeing that all the religions are only a delusion, I somehow start thinking that even though there are facts, confirming the hypotheses that gods are made by humans, there still must be a God. There still must be a higher being which hides itself from us, throwing facts, which can cloud our belief so he can test us. I know it is stupid and I am ignoring the facts, that's just how I am thinking right now.
So that's basically it, I just can't accept the facts, and continue to believe that there is a higher being which tests our beliefs, and after we die we either go to a better place, or a not so pleasant place.
Anyways, thank you all for the warm welcome hehe.
Quote:He thinks his OCD is grounded in his god belief and that if he manages to dump the god beliefs his OCD will go away, too.
The question is, though, were there sympotms of OCD present before the praying started and the OCD just got worse after you found a way to ritualize your life? In which case, god belief might not have anything to do with it. You seemed to be a somewhat apathetic believer until you decided to start praying and if you had literally no OCD symptoms prior to that then there might not be grounds to think that the OCD is caused by a god belief, but more brought on by the adherence of religious ritual.
As for this, I am quite sure that the whole OCD thing was born from the rituals started by my beliefs. What I mean is that I started praying, then continued inventing all those kinds of rituals only because I was scared if God would punish me by various ways.
Quote:To the OP: if you worry about whether you should really abandon God, maybe you shouldn't.
I have no advice though. Our situations are worlds apart. I never think about God or any other gods. I just don't, no effort required. That is because I have no active belief in them. But it sounds like you do. Why are you so anxious to leave that behind? Weren't you happy as a believer? You can't go getting too excited about what a couple of folks say on youtube.
Good luck.
Well I can't stand believing in God. I can't stand wondering if I will go to hell if I don't do this, or do that. I want to live a God-free life, without worrying for my afterlife or all those kinds of things. Problem is is that I am so obsessed with the "God watching me every single moment", that I am forcing myself to do all those kinds of rituals to please him. Whenever I read something about atheism, and I start seeing that all the religions are only a delusion, I somehow start thinking that even though there are facts, confirming the hypotheses that gods are made by humans, there still must be a God. There still must be a higher being which hides itself from us, throwing facts, which can cloud our belief so he can test us. I know it is stupid and I am ignoring the facts, that's just how I am thinking right now.
So that's basically it, I just can't accept the facts, and continue to believe that there is a higher being which tests our beliefs, and after we die we either go to a better place, or a not so pleasant place.
Anyways, thank you all for the warm welcome hehe.
