How I feel about my atheism and why I'd encourage religion

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Finally, one more thing is that I have chronic depression and what really bothers me is that these god-like powers I seek (the ability to experience full pleasure in life and live forever) may actually exist later on in the future. In other words, through technology, we might find a way to live forever and cure depression. But it would be too late because I would already be dead (and I highly doubt we will find a way through technology to somehow bring people back to life). This, right here, is a complete mockery of my superior god-like driven perception and personality. Depression is the greatest inferior thing you can have in your life (obviously in my case since I view pleasure as the greatest superior thing you can have in life). If I didn't have depression, then maybe I would hardly have any anger issues with this at all. But me having depression is the final straw that has completely given me hate (in this case, positive hate that makes me feel more empowered) towards these issues. Me both having depression and the fact that we might cure depression and live forever in the future both couple together to make the ultimate mockery of my personality. But despite this mockery, I still have the desire to feel empowered and superior anyway. I could have chosen to have your average typical anger that any normal person would have in these situations (a negative type of anger in which you feel inferior and such). But through my overwhelming desire of becoming superior to all things inferior to me, I have instead turned this anger around completely into a positive superior empowering anger that instead makes me feel empowered and superior.