So, if I understand the OP correctly, the guy wishes he has superpowers, and the fact that he doesn't is super depressing? 
Well, on the former part, welcome to the club: I sure do think life would be more fun if I could go around breaking reality too. But I can't. There's nothing saddening or shameful about using what abilities you have to do something meaningful, rather than wasting time wishing for shit that'll never come.
If this thing you've got going on actually means anything to you then you should start studying science and reality in order to find decent workarounds to extend the human lifespan, maybe even transhuman stuff if you want to start pulling superpowers. What you absolutely shouldn't do is waffle on about how wonderful religion must be, with its comforting delusions of getting special powers once you die; while science is out getting things done, religion just stalls you with promises of more once you're in a place where you can't come back and tell everyone what bullshit they all were.
Every last advancement ever made in human culture has been the product of one person, or a group of people, seeing a concept-shaped hole in reality, and deciding to fill it themselves by hook or by crook. Not a single one of those advances has ever been made by guys moping around on internet forums saying "gee, it'd be really great if this thing existed. I wish I was gullible enough to be tricked into thinking it will after I die!"

Well, on the former part, welcome to the club: I sure do think life would be more fun if I could go around breaking reality too. But I can't. There's nothing saddening or shameful about using what abilities you have to do something meaningful, rather than wasting time wishing for shit that'll never come.
If this thing you've got going on actually means anything to you then you should start studying science and reality in order to find decent workarounds to extend the human lifespan, maybe even transhuman stuff if you want to start pulling superpowers. What you absolutely shouldn't do is waffle on about how wonderful religion must be, with its comforting delusions of getting special powers once you die; while science is out getting things done, religion just stalls you with promises of more once you're in a place where you can't come back and tell everyone what bullshit they all were.
Every last advancement ever made in human culture has been the product of one person, or a group of people, seeing a concept-shaped hole in reality, and deciding to fill it themselves by hook or by crook. Not a single one of those advances has ever been made by guys moping around on internet forums saying "gee, it'd be really great if this thing existed. I wish I was gullible enough to be tricked into thinking it will after I die!"
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