RE: Anyone suffering from things they learned in the church?
June 12, 2014 at 12:08 pm
(This post was last modified: June 12, 2014 at 12:08 pm by Vox.)
As a Catholic...Doubt is probably the biggest, I still feel it quite often over pretty much anything, especially when debating theology, ethics or anything of that kind; even when I'm winning.
One of the things I was told aaages ago when I first gave a pro-divorce argument in a debate with another Catholic (now in the seminary I belive) in my first year at uni was "It doesn't matter what you think is right or what you want, God doesn't give a shit what you want or what your twisted mind thinks is right. He is God, it's all about what he thinks, and he says thats evil. End of discussion"
I can still remember that word for word, and while I won the debate I now think about that pretty much every single time I have to give an opinion on anything. Am I saying that just because I want it? Is it right or do I just want it to be right because I'm selfish? Am I really just looking for ways to justify being a slut or is divorce not bad?
I've moved on a bit since then, but I still can't give an opinion on anything these days without feeling guilty or having doubts about what I've said.
So yep, dunno if that counts as harm. I'm not contemplating suicide or nuthin'
One of the things I was told aaages ago when I first gave a pro-divorce argument in a debate with another Catholic (now in the seminary I belive) in my first year at uni was "It doesn't matter what you think is right or what you want, God doesn't give a shit what you want or what your twisted mind thinks is right. He is God, it's all about what he thinks, and he says thats evil. End of discussion"
I can still remember that word for word, and while I won the debate I now think about that pretty much every single time I have to give an opinion on anything. Am I saying that just because I want it? Is it right or do I just want it to be right because I'm selfish? Am I really just looking for ways to justify being a slut or is divorce not bad?
I've moved on a bit since then, but I still can't give an opinion on anything these days without feeling guilty or having doubts about what I've said.
So yep, dunno if that counts as harm. I'm not contemplating suicide or nuthin'