Life after death?

[ignoramus]

Before becoming an atheist, for many years I was asking myself could "god" be something else.
My reasoning hinged entirely on the notion that nature may have had intelligent design. Not intelligent as in self aware, but intelligence which comes with existence.
I therefore was comfortable for a while with life, death, soul, reincarnation, etc, as these were natural events of existence.
Nature recycles life as an efficiency mechanism. nothing more, nothing less. (and still fall within the laws of thermodynamics)
Therefore my "god" which couldn't be worshipped, was just a part of the natural laws of existence.
My "god" is not human, is not moralistic, is an unconscious "thing" just doing its job without realising it's doing it job.
If ever there was a "god", this would make sense to me.

But in effect, I am sort of describing nature itself, so I brushed it aside.
This is not the god which religious people need or want. They "need" to have a higher purpose of why we are here.
A lot of people won't and can't accept that we are life for the sake of it, for no predetermined reason. They are not mature enough to cope with that notion. Enter "Jesus".