Why Do You or Did You Believe?

[CindysRain]

Why did you believe?
And I add a second question:
What made you stop believing?

I think I was around 8, when I was invited to church by people from The Akron Baptist Temple. I went, I accepted, and thus began many years of blind faith. Eventually, my whole family came to church with me.

I was raised to obey without question, so I suppose religion made me feel right at home.

The questions came after I became a mom. Every mother knows that love is the most powerful force, on the planet! So, when listening to a sermon, or reading my bible, I would often compare, how I felt about my child, and I could not understand how god, (our heavenly father) could carry out the atrocities, that I read about.

The bible says that god is and has always been the same, but clearly the OT stories of god, showed him to be horrible, vindictive, genocidal, egotistical....kill everyone - babies, animals, anything breathing. Then in the NT god was all lovey dovey, turn the other cheek, blah, blah.

Once the questions started churning, I couldn't turn it off. It was a rough road, and harder than you can imagine, but eventually, I was able to acknowledge that the bible is a fucked up bunch of pages, not even worthy to be used to wipe your ass.