No life after death

[Paul the Human]

Aside from the kamikaze jihadists scenario, suicide is most often attributed to depression. I had friends who committed suicide, one guy that I went to school with hung himself because he and his girlfriend split up. He was sad, I can understand that, she wouldn't talk to him, okay, he ended his life, forever, because of it. Does that make sense? That's happened to the best of us. Every guy has at one point or another gotten his heart broken by some self centered bitch. But that typically isn't the end of relationships all together. So this was a temporary problem, permanent solution, I don't understand how that isn't baffling to someone Saerules. I don't understand how life can seem so bleak, so hopeless, that you don't even want to bother trying anymore.

Like I said, the appeal of life is that it is so fragile, so short, and in most cases, insignificant in the grand scheme of things. I can't imagine willingly giving that up. And even though i knew people personally who have, I still can't wrap my head around it.

It sounds like you are pretty unlikely to take yourself out. That is a good thing. I share your feelings that life is for living and ending it forever is a complete waste. However...

What if life was handing you nothing but misery and pain? Emotional trauma can be so intense that, if that is the state of life, it does not feel 'worth living'. Combine that with the lack of any reason to think the situation will change for the better. It might change, but you know it will only get worse... and you cannot imagine enduring it. At that point, one might consider ending it all to spare themselves the suffering. I know. I've been there.

I didn't actually attempt suicide, but I was on the brink. My mother saved my life and does not even know it.