A little bit of a personal crisis

[FatAndFaithless]

So, yes, you used pretty good logic to become a disbeliever.

There are stronger reasons to disbelieve than yours, but you still applied reason and critical thinking.

That leads to an obvious question. Why don't you apply the same critical thinking to your 'Aether' belief'? Why do you rely and your personal feeling for that belief?

Because at the same time I cannot think of a logical reason to disbelieve in it, and have not found one offered to me. At least, not one that I cannot explain with my own beliefs.

For example one could argue that life i not comprised of such energy because science cannot discover it. However at the same time we do know that life is comprised of molecules and elements. And molecules are bonded together by energy are they not?

This energy bonding of atoms and molecules i supported by nuclear fission and fusion, both of which involve the separation or bonding of atoms and elements, and produce large amounts of energy. So energy does exist in the universe between atoms and elements and molecules.

Saying then that there is energy connecting all living things together is not entirely far fetched, and that it would recycle itself into new life is just as plausible. And that it might exist on a more spiritual level is simply a feeling that, silly as it is to others, seems plausible to me. So then I believe.

TL;DR - Energy does scientifically exist in the world, so making aether plausible, so I don't find it illogical to believe.

Saying something is possible or plausible doesn't make it logical to believe..

Additionally, what you described is simply the potential or chemical energy present in the atoms and molecules of which the universe consists. That's just science, and pretty well-described science at that. If all you're saying is that you believe in the energy that's inside atoms in molecules, there's nothing fantastic or transcendent about that, it's just fact.

What you haven't done is really describe what this Aether thing is, how to measure or observe it, or really anything about it. A vague 'everything is connected' idea is so broad and ill-defined it's rather useless. And if you can't really define or measure or observe or describe something, I think it's pretty illogical to believe in it.