Do you ever doubt your atheism?

[Mudhammam]

But don't you envision a god as something capable of "communicating" with you? And a creator god would have a prior "intention", no? If not 'conscious', not sure what you would call this god.

Perhaps my depth cannot grasp the possibility but I see it as completely paradoxical to state that a timeless being could ever "act in time," which it would seem to require if I were envision it "communicating" with me. Maybe this being exists within its own time and space? I dunno. Non-temporal and non-spatial, even if physicists define this as a "vacuum," is totally inconceivable. Even the act of creating a Universe, from the vantage point of timelessness, suggests to me that it's in ever-present function rather than one that takes place at any given moment. I'm not sure about "intention" but in terms of being "conscious," if consciousness is a function of material entities than it seems meaningless to speak of "immaterial consciousness." How would that be even conceptually possible? A stream of pure experience that is omnipresent in everything?

Now we're going into territory so obscure and devoid of content that it basically reaffirms to myself why I am not a believer. :-)