Do you ever doubt your atheism?

[naimless]

In response to OP's question, yes.

Particularly in life/death scenarios.

I've had some subjective experiences.

Care to explain?

Like I was bleeding out pretty heavily once and another time I was stranded in the middle of nowhere when my jeep broke down... basically I realised I didn't want to die like that both times so humbled myself to a higher power of some description - "god" is the word I am most familiar with, "universe" or "nature" is the thought.

I've also had experiences where I have wished things upon the universe that have came true when I have had entire faith in the universe. Things like getting girls, winning insane amounts of money, playing sports at the highest level, etc.

I have also had dreams where everything I asked is explained to me by "god", and experiences where I am creating my reality as if I am "Jesus". But then I have also had dreams of just having a normal day and eating KFC and then the most adrenaline rushing apocalypses so it is hard to put them all in context.

It isn't possible for me to achieve things within the top 1% of humanity without insane psychopathic meditation of the moments it requires. I think science describes some of the objective "how", but the subjective "why" is forever agnostic. Like, looking back it was entirely logical how I bled out or won a tournament but why it happened in those exact moments is quite synchronised.