Logic tells me God doesn't exist but my heart says otherwise.

[Mudhammam]

Your "heart" tells you that God exists because reality is scary, it's difficult; you're born in the world alone and you die alone, and in your thoughts you are also persistently alone. The only way to escape this existential loneliness is to believe in God, and it works until you realize how superficial that belief really is.

You maybe right, but in my case, it's not only that I am scared for my own sake, I think off all humans past and present who are going to crease to exist. The many children who died as children. To me, it would be tragic if God doesn't exist. That human lives don't continue after death. I guess that could be playing a huge part in my faith.

It's both a tragedy and a farce. But these are also our own projections onto the world, which as it is, is really neither tragic nor comedic, good nor bad. Rather, it simply is, and while eternal oblivion is frightening largely because we don't know what it is that we fear, it's also irrelevant to our own present moment in life, which, in perspective, truly becomes a privilege. No doubt increase in age brings about loss after loss, but you cannot avoid this.