Was Jesus a God or a man?

[Hezekiah]

Gotta admit, I'm extremely curious. Whats scary about the idea of "no god"?
(notice, right off the bat, that many here will tell you that this is not atheism - just so it doesn't come as a surprise.)

Then let me rephrase, I find anti-theism to be depressing for myself. If I was anti-theistic, I wouldn't enjoy the meaningless, or lack purpose. And then the imminent nothingness that swallows us up as the end.

I find that Christian-ideas makes me a better person toward others (i.e. - I care about other people's happiness, I'm passionate about human rights, etc.), whereas without them I would be a rather depressing individual to be around (I wouldn't feel passionate toward others, I'd isolate myself, etc.). Says more about what I need than what I am. Even if there actually was no God, at all, I would still be a Christian so that at least I can be happy and share happiness with others.