I should make this clear, because Christians often seem to miss the point, but while I find much of what the OT god does despicable, and I'm only marginally more pleased with the behavior of the NT god, that's not why I don't believe in him. I don't believe in him, because there is no evidence for him and nothing to make him more or less unlikely than all of the other god options.
If there is a god, I want to believe that there is a god. If there is not a god, I want to believe that there is no god.
