Life Is Always Perfect

[Strider]

My life could be a hell of a lot worse. But I'd still rather be dead. Life is shit. The world is shit.

But I do the best I can. I have to actively apply blinkers, just pretend certain stuff isn't happening in the world, to be able to function.

I'm glad others are enjoying life more than I am. I hated the world even before I became ill, but I was better at dealing with it then.

I hear you. I really do. I do a lot of deep thinking about the state of the world, and sometimes it gets to me.

I will admit to playing the ostrich at times, trying to live my life in a little bubble with no thoughts to the world at large. It works at times and at times it doesn't. It's not that I want to ignore pressing issues; it's just that I don't believe I can affect any change whatsoever.

Also, I hate to hear you're ill.