I want to thank those of you who at least tried to understand where I'm at, and apologize to any I have offended.
I wish to thank you for your opinions, that's all I ever asked for. And even though I know I can come off as confrontational, I believe I apologized for that in my intro
But please understand, I am here to ask questions, and I don't see why that is met with hostility, even if they are questions you are tired of answering! I will only say, I am in a bad, bad place. My friends are dying, my family members are dying, some of which I have suffered decades of Christian fundamentalist abuse from. And I guess I'm reaching for a language to speak to them in while I can, so we can both forgive (for my ALERGY to the word Jesus, I take half the blame).
My friends are lost , my daughter is lost, I want to be a rock or a life raft , chose your metaphor. My Dad is dead, my Mom's racing toward joining him , and now even my own health is failing at an ever increasing speed. I have spent two years in and out of hospitals, and have aged ten years in the process. And , dammit, I'm scared !!!
I am at a place where other people "pray' , but have searched my soul for decades over that one and found that I do not believe in deity. So, it goes without saying that I don't have that "crutch, or drug" to ease the pain.
and so I came here and just wanted to hear and ask what I thought were "like-minded" individuals what gives them peace? how do they make peace with those they love yet cant speak the same language? How do they make peace with the questions that wont let them sleep?
I intended no melodrama, and if you ask the one here who knows me best, you will definitely be reassured that I will curl up in a fetal position and hide from confrontation if I can ! not because I'm afraid of It, but because I'm so prone to it , and soooo tired of it.
it was only my intent to pick your brains, but it seems that I have , in large part, failed to keep myself out of the way again.
Again, apologies all around , and thank you to those who tried
Doc
I wish to thank you for your opinions, that's all I ever asked for. And even though I know I can come off as confrontational, I believe I apologized for that in my intro
But please understand, I am here to ask questions, and I don't see why that is met with hostility, even if they are questions you are tired of answering! I will only say, I am in a bad, bad place. My friends are dying, my family members are dying, some of which I have suffered decades of Christian fundamentalist abuse from. And I guess I'm reaching for a language to speak to them in while I can, so we can both forgive (for my ALERGY to the word Jesus, I take half the blame).
My friends are lost , my daughter is lost, I want to be a rock or a life raft , chose your metaphor. My Dad is dead, my Mom's racing toward joining him , and now even my own health is failing at an ever increasing speed. I have spent two years in and out of hospitals, and have aged ten years in the process. And , dammit, I'm scared !!!
I am at a place where other people "pray' , but have searched my soul for decades over that one and found that I do not believe in deity. So, it goes without saying that I don't have that "crutch, or drug" to ease the pain.
and so I came here and just wanted to hear and ask what I thought were "like-minded" individuals what gives them peace? how do they make peace with those they love yet cant speak the same language? How do they make peace with the questions that wont let them sleep?
I intended no melodrama, and if you ask the one here who knows me best, you will definitely be reassured that I will curl up in a fetal position and hide from confrontation if I can ! not because I'm afraid of It, but because I'm so prone to it , and soooo tired of it.
it was only my intent to pick your brains, but it seems that I have , in large part, failed to keep myself out of the way again.
Again, apologies all around , and thank you to those who tried
Doc
