I was indoctrinated into Christianity as a child like most Americans. At the all knowing age of 7 i gave my devotion to Jesus. At the time i was having a lot of problems understanding people and how to handle the conflicts which inevitably rose in my life. In short, poeple scared me. My hope was that by giving my will to God that i would have the inspiration to face these problems, not with my meager inadequit will but instead with the power of this all knowing all seeing deity.
As you can imagine that did not work so well. If fact most/all of the people who i had trouble with where Christian.
I believed in what christianity taught me whole heartidly as it would be hypocriticle to do other wise.
At about 10 i started to get those "feelings" of sexuality. that caused a lot of guilt due to the teachings.
I would often ask myself "what would Jesus do in this situation?" in many scenarios i would find myself in (ussualy confrontation with people). It was almost always meet with negativity by people who claimed to be Christian.
in short i was looking for that divine feeling that would help me live in the confusing life that i found myself in. Nothing came to me.
I went through several faiths and came to rely on none.
Now many things make scence from a nonbelieving point of view.
I now don't believe that masterbation is bad. I feel that guilt is a tool used by many especialy religion. I think that spirituality is an iddividual thing and should remain that way. I believe that humaity can be great without the trappings of a guilt ridden set of dogma.
As you can imagine that did not work so well. If fact most/all of the people who i had trouble with where Christian.
I believed in what christianity taught me whole heartidly as it would be hypocriticle to do other wise.
At about 10 i started to get those "feelings" of sexuality. that caused a lot of guilt due to the teachings.
I would often ask myself "what would Jesus do in this situation?" in many scenarios i would find myself in (ussualy confrontation with people). It was almost always meet with negativity by people who claimed to be Christian.
in short i was looking for that divine feeling that would help me live in the confusing life that i found myself in. Nothing came to me.
I went through several faiths and came to rely on none.
Now many things make scence from a nonbelieving point of view.
I now don't believe that masterbation is bad. I feel that guilt is a tool used by many especialy religion. I think that spirituality is an iddividual thing and should remain that way. I believe that humaity can be great without the trappings of a guilt ridden set of dogma.
