Yeah, the deconversion process is painful.
I was pregnant (33 years old, first baby) when I really started going through it. It was the thought I'd lose the baby that forced my hand. When she was born, I was one of those terrified parents that checks to see if the baby is still breathing every few minutes. I barely slept for months. I realized, if she died of SIDS or something, I had to accept that I would NOT see her again in some fairy tale land. I'm not even sure how I survived some of that time, it's all a blurry haze of tears and tiredness.
I suffered some pretty severe depression for a couple of years, but now on the other side of it, I would like to say it's worth the pain to get here. Things are so much more precious and special and wonderous now.
I was pregnant (33 years old, first baby) when I really started going through it. It was the thought I'd lose the baby that forced my hand. When she was born, I was one of those terrified parents that checks to see if the baby is still breathing every few minutes. I barely slept for months. I realized, if she died of SIDS or something, I had to accept that I would NOT see her again in some fairy tale land. I'm not even sure how I survived some of that time, it's all a blurry haze of tears and tiredness.
I suffered some pretty severe depression for a couple of years, but now on the other side of it, I would like to say it's worth the pain to get here. Things are so much more precious and special and wonderous now.
“Eternity is a terrible thought. I mean, where's it going to end?”
― Tom Stoppard, Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead
― Tom Stoppard, Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead
