No, it isn't a crime, but it does show an unwillingness to learn from all things around you. Even if I'm wrong, you can at least learn that 'such and such view is wrong' from me. 
I'd be curious to hear about your personal experiences with God, and why you eventually discredited them as a trick of the mind. What was the experience? What made you change your mind and lose faith in the experience as being genuine? You understand that this is where faith in oneself and one's sense comes in, don't you? If you cannot have faith and trust in your own personal experiences...then who can you trust?
Think of it this way; what if you asked me what it was like to go bungie jumping, because I had been bungie jumping before and you had not? I could describe the exhiliration I felt as I plummeted towards the ground, the whipping feeling of the wind against my face and the rest of my body, and I could even go into detail about the sharp pull as I reached the end of my cord and was snapped back into the air at high speed...but unless you went out and went bungie jumping yourself, would you ever truly understand what it was like to do it? No, of course not.
God and faith is personal in that manner. If I had a perfect memory, and I could recite to you each and every experience with God I ever had; if I could describe in absolutely perfect detail what my faith was like; if I could explain to you the whole of the Bible as it is meant to be taken point for point...would you ever truly understand until you had gone out and experienced these things for yourself?
No, you would not.
I'd be curious to hear about your personal experiences with God, and why you eventually discredited them as a trick of the mind. What was the experience? What made you change your mind and lose faith in the experience as being genuine? You understand that this is where faith in oneself and one's sense comes in, don't you? If you cannot have faith and trust in your own personal experiences...then who can you trust?
Think of it this way; what if you asked me what it was like to go bungie jumping, because I had been bungie jumping before and you had not? I could describe the exhiliration I felt as I plummeted towards the ground, the whipping feeling of the wind against my face and the rest of my body, and I could even go into detail about the sharp pull as I reached the end of my cord and was snapped back into the air at high speed...but unless you went out and went bungie jumping yourself, would you ever truly understand what it was like to do it? No, of course not.
God and faith is personal in that manner. If I had a perfect memory, and I could recite to you each and every experience with God I ever had; if I could describe in absolutely perfect detail what my faith was like; if I could explain to you the whole of the Bible as it is meant to be taken point for point...would you ever truly understand until you had gone out and experienced these things for yourself?
No, you would not.
