Honestly? I think your problem isn't with god, but with the rest of the JW community. You're afraid of how you'll be perceived and treated by them if you do decide to get divorced.
Peer pressure is a horrible reason to make a decision. Weigh the choices honestly, then choose. And if the people around you can't accept what you choose, even after you lay it all out for them, then they weren't really in your corner to begin with.
Peer pressure is a horrible reason to make a decision. Weigh the choices honestly, then choose. And if the people around you can't accept what you choose, even after you lay it all out for them, then they weren't really in your corner to begin with.
"I was thirsty for everything, but blood wasn't my style" - Live, "Voodoo Lady"