RE: Where did the universe come from? Atheistic origin science has no answer.
June 17, 2015 at 4:40 pm
(This post was last modified: June 17, 2015 at 4:42 pm by popsthebuilder.)
Okay. I was an adamant atheist from early childhood up until maybe a decade ago. Roughly 20 years. Was an atheist because I believed in evolution and still do, and because I was brought up christian more specifically baptist and couldn't understand why a god of love and compassion could allow so much pain. Anyway, slowly started believing there may be a higher power but couldn't have any real faith in that power. Had a lot going on as far as drama, stress, money problems, battles with addiction, and had been bordering a very unhealthy state of morbid psychosis. Now this holy intervention was initially about 4 years ago. Even right after it happened parts were fading from my mind. When I got home I attempted to note down the things I could remember but all that was put to paper was ideals. So I was driving down the street after work feeling like the weight in my shoulders could crush me at any moment, and feeling particularly homicidal towards a particular person. I remember listening to the radio then it just faded out. I attempted to change the channel but nothing changed but the numbers. My burdens were effortlessly lifted from me causing a deep sob in relief and hysteric laughter. All my times of doubt throughout childhood, adolescents, and adulthood were brought to the front of my mind. Things and times long forgotten. For each case and even before my birth I was filled with a sense of knowing I guess. He or it showed me that he had been there all along and that he had not only hope for me but great plans. Through my premature birth and the months on a respirator in an incubator, through out my trying childhood, through my personal failings, through the deaths and births of the people I hold dear. He was there through all of my follies and trials. I wasn't even aware. I find his intervention absolutely miraculous and thank him and remind him in turn that I have not and will not forget. There is always a faint connection I can feel now. Sometimes exceedingly strong. I try to ask for guidance often because there are indeed two sides if not three and I have to fight to focus on the one that is just and righteous.
When it was over the radio came back on but the sense of relief has never left through all my outward turmoil.
When it was over the radio came back on but the sense of relief has never left through all my outward turmoil.
