RE: Fundamental Independent Evangelical Bullshit, Suicide, and the Awakening of Truth
January 21, 2019 at 2:13 am
I am so sorry you have been through these things. That's nearly as worthless as thought and prayers, I know but it's about all I have. You certainly aren't to blame for what has happened and there is no god with a plan. What there is - is people who make decisions that effect themselves and those around them by their actions.
My younger daughter's best friend from middle school was murdered by her husband when she was 28 years old. He then called his mother to come pick up their three year old who was watching TV and eating cereal and he turned the gun on himself. What kind of plan could there have been by a god? These acts left five - count them - five children without one or both parents as they were a blended family. My daughter and granddaughter were living with them at the time...my daughter has never recovered from the events of that day. There are days I ache from the loss of both Tori and the damage done to my daughter and Tor's kids and stepkids.
Just a few months ago the middle son of my older daughter's best friend shot himself. He was a firefighter. His family is shredded.
Losses like that are jarring. They are difficult to recover from. God has a plan is such an empty comment. It means nothing.
Satan has nothing to do with any of this but the way you are feeling is called grief and it is not an easy thing to move past. Stop thinking Satan has anything to do with what's going on in your head and your heart. If you can, find a secular counselor to help you work through the steps of grief but realize that there will be times when the grief (not Satan) grabs you...often blindsiding you. You mention depression...there is help for that too...with counseling and/or medication. These are tough things to work through and live around and there's no shame in seeking help.
December 20th of every year sneaks up on me and lays me low...my first husband died at age 24 in a car accident...that was in 1984. I was already away from the church but thought I needed to try again and that would help. So I found a church and looked up the times of services (I was in a new city and state). I dressed up, drove to the church, and found a seat and the service started...in Spanish...which I don't speak or understand. I took it as a sign from the universe that as before there was no god talking to me.
I am sure there are many people here who are willing to lend support. Again, I am sorry you dealing with loss and pain on many levels.
My younger daughter's best friend from middle school was murdered by her husband when she was 28 years old. He then called his mother to come pick up their three year old who was watching TV and eating cereal and he turned the gun on himself. What kind of plan could there have been by a god? These acts left five - count them - five children without one or both parents as they were a blended family. My daughter and granddaughter were living with them at the time...my daughter has never recovered from the events of that day. There are days I ache from the loss of both Tori and the damage done to my daughter and Tor's kids and stepkids.
Just a few months ago the middle son of my older daughter's best friend shot himself. He was a firefighter. His family is shredded.
Losses like that are jarring. They are difficult to recover from. God has a plan is such an empty comment. It means nothing.
Satan has nothing to do with any of this but the way you are feeling is called grief and it is not an easy thing to move past. Stop thinking Satan has anything to do with what's going on in your head and your heart. If you can, find a secular counselor to help you work through the steps of grief but realize that there will be times when the grief (not Satan) grabs you...often blindsiding you. You mention depression...there is help for that too...with counseling and/or medication. These are tough things to work through and live around and there's no shame in seeking help.
December 20th of every year sneaks up on me and lays me low...my first husband died at age 24 in a car accident...that was in 1984. I was already away from the church but thought I needed to try again and that would help. So I found a church and looked up the times of services (I was in a new city and state). I dressed up, drove to the church, and found a seat and the service started...in Spanish...which I don't speak or understand. I took it as a sign from the universe that as before there was no god talking to me.
I am sure there are many people here who are willing to lend support. Again, I am sorry you dealing with loss and pain on many levels.
“If you are the smartest person in the room, then you are in the wrong room.” — Confucius
