(August 25, 2016 at 4:54 am)Thumpalumpacus Wrote:(August 25, 2016 at 2:34 am)Cthulhu Dreaming Wrote: I'm feeling like the cocktail of tramadol, anti-convulsants, anti-inflammatories, a sedative and weed will put me to sleep. Not holding my breath though. Hurts so bad I can't think of much else.
Thing is, I find with chronic pain second guessing myself (come on, CD. Don't be a wimp, how bad could it be?). Bad enough to deny me sleep, and I'm prone to bad mood swings and eventually psychosis when that happens.
Living with chronic pain as I do, I cannot imagine this level of it. I can feel my pain in my sleep, but at least I can sleep.
I guess the only thing I can do to help, and it's probably a long shot, is to tell you to quit downing on yourself. It takes a tough motherfucker to get through your days.
I think that's good advice. This shit just about drove me to suicide, from 2012 to 2015 I had zero fucks to give and was basically slowly killing myself. Pretty sure I've never revealed that here.
If I'm nothing else, I'm a survivor and ain't nothing going to kill this motherfucker if I can help it.