RE: How's Everyone Feeling Right Meow?
October 30, 2016 at 5:49 pm
(This post was last modified: October 30, 2016 at 5:50 pm by Edwardo Piet.)
Not diagnosed but had meds prescribed for it by my psych.
He never really diagnosed me with anything... he said he didn't like labels. Meanwhile I'm here with the cognitive dissonance of not knowing what is wrong with me.
I don't think I have O.C.D... people just say that when they have O.C symptoms coloquially.
I think i have Aspergers Syndrome and coming out of my comfort zone and going against my Aspie mental rules causes me cognitive dissonance. I think I am very obsessive and compulsive but without the disorder per se...
If I don't have AS then I'd say it definitely is O.C.D. It's one of the two I think.... it seems too atypical and too like an Aspie's mental rules and frustration with themselves when coming out of their comfort zone... and not like your typical O.C.D. symptoms, for it to be O.C.D. though.
It's all entirely about my own internal mental rules and rituals and about who I am as a person... I don't really have any obsessions that I feel compelled to relieve temporarily with compulsions per say... I just feel anxious out of the comfort zone of my mental rules... when they change I feel so much anxiety and it's happening now.
I feel compelled to have mental rules. Without them I feel depressed. When I change them I feel the anxiety of changing them and worrying that I'll be without them. When I have them again I feel better for the longer they remain in place.... so ideally I would keep the same ones forever. But if something occurs in life that makes me feel like my mental rules and insufficent or not enough to make me cope they suddenly stop comforting me and make me feel empty and depressed so that's when I panic and have to change them like now.
He never really diagnosed me with anything... he said he didn't like labels. Meanwhile I'm here with the cognitive dissonance of not knowing what is wrong with me.
I don't think I have O.C.D... people just say that when they have O.C symptoms coloquially.
I think i have Aspergers Syndrome and coming out of my comfort zone and going against my Aspie mental rules causes me cognitive dissonance. I think I am very obsessive and compulsive but without the disorder per se...
If I don't have AS then I'd say it definitely is O.C.D. It's one of the two I think.... it seems too atypical and too like an Aspie's mental rules and frustration with themselves when coming out of their comfort zone... and not like your typical O.C.D. symptoms, for it to be O.C.D. though.
It's all entirely about my own internal mental rules and rituals and about who I am as a person... I don't really have any obsessions that I feel compelled to relieve temporarily with compulsions per say... I just feel anxious out of the comfort zone of my mental rules... when they change I feel so much anxiety and it's happening now.
I feel compelled to have mental rules. Without them I feel depressed. When I change them I feel the anxiety of changing them and worrying that I'll be without them. When I have them again I feel better for the longer they remain in place.... so ideally I would keep the same ones forever. But if something occurs in life that makes me feel like my mental rules and insufficent or not enough to make me cope they suddenly stop comforting me and make me feel empty and depressed so that's when I panic and have to change them like now.