RE: How's Everyone Feeling Right Meow?
December 12, 2016 at 1:07 am
(This post was last modified: December 12, 2016 at 1:11 am by Edwardo Piet.)
(December 7, 2016 at 1:00 pm)AkiraTheFighter24 Wrote:(December 7, 2016 at 12:33 pm)Thumpalumpacus Wrote: What are the thoughts in your head?
Oh nothing big just that I'm a failure. I can't keep a job much less find one. I can't provide for myself. I'm a burden on my mom. Nobody cares about me, I'll never amount to anything. I always over react to things. The only use I am to people is being a steeping stone for their success. There's other stuff as well I just can't remember at this point. Which is another thing I have to deal with. My crappy mind and body that just so weak and stupid. *sigh* I always overthink things, things that could happen, things that already happen. It's always a chore to get myself to realize it's not gonna happen. I'm so fed up of fighting it.
(December 7, 2016 at 11:52 am)Bella Morte Wrote: Dude, go see your GP and maybe he can refer you to a therapist?
They have free psychiatrists, but you need to be visiting a paid one in order to get a recommendation to see a free one. What's worse is that the free psychiatrist is the one that made my dad get worse, so I don't trust psychiatrist or therapists for that matter.
My bold.
I can't even get that right.
I've not only been suicidal before but I've attempted it. It's not worth it (and I could have died). It's not worth it at all. If I hadn't attempted it before I would very much be attempting it now, yes, but I have attempted it before and no I won't be attempting it now nor will I ever be attempting it again. It's not worth it. Trust me. It's not worth it. I'm too depressed to kill myself. I deserve to be miserable.
So hopefully the point you will get from this post is the point that is being made: That it's not worth it. Because it really is not worth it. So don't slit your wrists and don't attempt suicide. Thank you, I love you, you are awesome and unique like many many people and I wish more people saw that I see them as them (someone to be loved as themselves as much as any other).
(December 11, 2016 at 11:34 pm)Jello Wrote: Thanks guys. I appreciate the support.
I just feel so sad all the time, like i just feel like i live such a shitty, lonely existence, and i hate it. I feel angry too, because i feel like i put so much effort into everything, just to go unnoticed. And i'm just really, really exhausted at this point in time.
I feel exactly the same fucking way.