Spent most of the day in some combination of panic attack and depressive episode, which was... interesting. Every muscle right down to my toes was clenched with tension, but I couldn't move.
According to the diagnostic reports I have now, I have a psychiatric disability. A mental illness so long-lasting and severe that my doctors all suggest I quit work entirely, file for disability support, and focus on treatment for at least the next few years. That's what I'm doing, and since filling out the applications puts me into such a tailspin that I end up paralyzed with ennui and anxiety, I tend to agree.
Well, at least now when I have bad days like today, I know what to call it, and I don't end up just blaming myself. That's a plus.
According to the diagnostic reports I have now, I have a psychiatric disability. A mental illness so long-lasting and severe that my doctors all suggest I quit work entirely, file for disability support, and focus on treatment for at least the next few years. That's what I'm doing, and since filling out the applications puts me into such a tailspin that I end up paralyzed with ennui and anxiety, I tend to agree.
Well, at least now when I have bad days like today, I know what to call it, and I don't end up just blaming myself. That's a plus.
"YOU take the hard look in the mirror. You are everything that is wrong with this world. The only thing important to you, is you." - ronedee
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