looking at toilet paper after wiping

[Whateverist]

I showed a doctor my wipe before. As there was tons of blood and she insisted without testing that I was fine. Do you know what? Poop diseases are the worst. Diseases of anything having to do with your digestive system.

Because it never stops. It's always going. And you can't live without using it! Well u can but that is just a horrific way to live believe me.

My Chrones Treatment #5 failed, btw. I am semi worried they'll run out of treatments for me to try and I'll just.. live till some weird Chrones or Ulcerative Colitis or Wegeners complication just takes me out. Talk about a shitty disease--can't absorb nutrients, inflammation makes weird things happen to your skin like pyoderma gangrenenosum, fissures, fistulas (don't look up if u value your sanity), ulcers, boils, rectal tears, hemhorroids, stomach ulcers, ulcerative collitis, and then since the treatment for this is several immunosuppressants (low dose chemo)?.... Infection. Or pulmonary embolisms, of which I've had 3. Three surgeries and being bedbound after each one for weeks degrades your muscles, and can cause clots in your legs to travel to lungs. Blood thinners for that making all of the above life threatening (well, more so).
I read about a treatment that works like 95% of the time. It's called a fecal transplant, and it's as gross as it sounds, yeah. Would you do it?

You're damned right I would. Wouldn't need to sleep on it either. Just hand me the shit shake and lets fix this. Can you get this treatment through your doctors? If not, get better ones please! I so prefer happy endings.