(October 5, 2017 at 10:07 pm)Catholic_Lady Wrote:(October 5, 2017 at 9:58 pm)MysticKnight Wrote: They tell me I am too hard on myself, but the truth is, I have been too soft. I who spat in the holy court and ran away back to the darkness.... I deserve a lot worse in punishment than most people on earth.
Darkest of souls with brightest of knowledge, I don't deserve any of the proofs and knowledge I know. Whatever mercy I am shown, will be due to God's compassion on my regret, but to no merit of my own.
Having genuine remorse for past mistakes takes humility and introspection. Don't undermine those great qualities, which you obviously have. <3
Humility and introspection are good qualities, to be sure. But this degree of self-loathing seems more like inverted megalomania.
Darkest of souls? Deserving worse punishment than most people on earth? Really?