RE: Am I the only one who feels this way
April 7, 2019 at 10:52 am
(This post was last modified: April 7, 2019 at 10:57 am by The Grand Nudger.)
(April 6, 2019 at 11:43 pm)seylee Wrote: I cannot take God anymore..feel like I'm walking on eggshells and I feel like I'm dealing with a judgmental and abusive entIty all the time. I feel really isolated and I can't tell anyone what's going on...
Welcome aboard.
If gods exist and are as you fear, there's nothing you can do about that. Not entirely unlike the asteroid almost certainly plummeting towards the earth right now. Talking about whatever is going on might help...but, ultimately, you'll have to figure out how it is that you manage your day to day under threat of asteroid strike and employ that towards the threat of the divine.
The feeling you're describing, as a position, is called maltheism. Knowing that might help you find info on how others who've felt like you do dealt with it. The notion is as old as gods themselves. No, you're not the only person to have felt that way. Most religions incorporate some form of maltheism, themselves, by asserting a divine adversarial other.
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