(February 12, 2021 at 3:12 pm)Klorophyll Wrote: but I think that, scientific questions notwithstanding, one in general lives a happier life by assuming a wrong/deluded answer than accept not knowing.
I don't take kindly to being told what it is I am experiencing. My existential anguish is a result of my indoctrination into a religious cult that gave me the illusion of absolute certainty in exchange for my constant guilt and unflinching obedience. The thing I am suffering from right now is that my mental and emotional growth has been stunted by God-fearing men, like you, who would rather have me enslave myself to a lie than to truly know myself. My sorrow and frustration come from my victimization at the hands of those I depended on and trusted.
I don't think happiness is the ultimate goal. We'll call it fulfillment. I would rather go through this pain, teaching myself how to see, how to trust my inner guide, and struggle and stumble than plaster on a fake smile while withering under the demanding, gluttonous dominance of an invisible entity. Any being that would accept my manipulative lies as "good enough" for heaven automatically abandons the virtuous position. And the smile I would wear while adhering to a repressive religion would indeed be fake.
This is the hangover. I am sick, detoxing off of the control religion had on my life.
