(November 20, 2013 at 9:56 am)leodeo Wrote: i was christian then became atheist recently but lotta people here pointed out that i still believe in god so im probably a theist.
I don't think i'm christian because i dont agree with 99% of the stuff in the bible and i dont seem to fit in with other christians because they so excited to see god and be with him in heaven, and i feel like god doesn't really do anything except what is in his plan so praying is just to make us feel better about situations.
also i get in fights with christians because when good stuff happens they praise god but when bad stuff happens they don't even considering thinking why god couldn't have done something about it :/
so is it okay if i just believe in god and not follow any of the religions? basically im trying my best to stop believing in god but its not happening,
but now iim trying to make it like "god loves us in a weird way, but at least he loves us, i think.... but life sometimes sucks regardless so just gonna do my best and try not to blame him for stuff cuz it makes me more suicidal"
But I'm worried because christianity is the #1 religion on the planet, what if they are right? I mean, how could so many people be wrong? And it has been around for a long time too, granted not as long as hinduism and stuff. And they got so much organization with the Church, and so many ancient and holy scriptures and stuff too.
I give you 6 months. You'll be an agnostic. A year, a full blown Atheist. (just a guess)
I say that only because I used to say things just like that on my road to deconversion. Don't worry, it's not as scary as it might seem. I remember wanting to hold on to my belief, even when I couldn't make sense of it.
The reassurance that it's true regardless of whether or not it made sense was starting to lose it's luster, and I wanted to wrap my mind around something I could make a little more sense of.
I had no idea how close I actually was to realizing what that was. The reason God didn't make sense wasn't due to my limited capacity for understanding God. The reason my belief in God didn't make sense was because a belief in God doesn't make any sense! Now, THAT MAKES SENSE! You have to leave the trees to see the forest. Let go of the fear of leaving what is familiar. Because, when you do, it's a magnificent view. In your view you will see the entire forest that once blinded you, and surrounding the forest is a world of endless possibilities and things to think about. God is an answer for people that need an answer for things they do not know. My faith in God was pretending to have the answer for things I did not know. I just didn't realize that I'd been pretending. Once I stopped pretending, I could start thinking, and the persuit for knowledge is an awesome road to travel.
Whatever you decide, I hope it brings you happiness and satisfaction, and doesn't make you into an arrogant Christian prick
"It is better to live an examined life and be unsatisfied, than to be satisfied with an unexamined life." -Socrates
