Being a Lying Atheist

[LivingNumbers6.626]

I had never thought I was lying or hiding my true belief. I never knew that truly I truly believed in supertstion, that deep down I believe in racism, misogyny, and murder. I'm glad I have family members and acquaintances who know the real truth. I'm glad I have people in my life who know the cognitive processes of God and consequently mine as well.

"Most people who leave the church know that the church is really true, they just can't hang with the standards" they all assert as I, an atheist, stays quiet.

I contemplate lashing out, and then I contemplate a more civil process of refutation. Perhaps even a line of questioning. Perhaps an offer that would allow them to question me?

But I stay quiet this time. I stay quiet because I rather enjoy the next hour of company than storm out after 30 minutes of religious nonsense. I stay quiet because I was loud before, and assertive before, but it pays no satisfaction.

Are they speaking like this because they know I am here? Are they being passive aggressive and intentionally arrogant? Do they not care to remember my reasons for leaving? Do they care to ask again? Do they care to ask me about people that I know that have left church? Do they care to approach these people themselves?

The level of mind control is amazing. A reasonable person would consider the questions and then pursue the answers. But not in the case of certain fundamental believers. They may go as far as to ask questions, but they assume the answers, rather than seeking free inquiry.

Why must they do this? Have I not explained it countless times? Have I been made to look idiotic in my silence? Is is worth it to speak up? Is it worth the loneliness and judgement caused my those so close in relation?

It doesn't really matter, the loneliness and judgement continues in silence as well as in open conversation.

So I sat there quietly, as those inside the room soaked in there own incurable ignorance.

[ShaMan]

Ummm.....?

[Aoi Magi]

I don't see the need to jump in a debate with each and every religious person I come across, THAT would be a waste of time. Religion has a good philosophical side to it which in many cases is actually helpful, and at times I have defended these moral values. However I'll try and talk sense into my friends and family members if I see that they are going to face a problem due to their beliefs. My approach is never to refute their beliefs, rather I always try to come out as if I wish to learn more about their beliefs and in turn make them question themselves.