Hey,
I have recently come to the vivid realization that I have spent the best part of my life talking to thin air, to the walls, to the sky you name it and have basically wasted the precious time I have on this planet doing so.Religion and associated spiritualities have brought me no joy except for in the initial stages of getting into them.
I have surrounded myself with quite horrible people who were never friends and were only there with the proviso I remain unquestioning which I was never able to do. There were always questions. In the end that's all there were. Questions with more questions to follow with no satisfactory answers to be had.
I collapsed recently with severe chest pains and I thought now might be a good time for God to show up. I asked fervently for God to show me some sign of his/her/their/its existence yet as always 'God' remained completely silent. It was then I was struck with 2 notions. Either God isn't here and never has been or God is here but doesn't give a flying f*ck about me. Either way I'm alone in the situation.
It was after when I was recovering that I realized much of the stress in my life has come from my religious life and all of the things I put down to the supernatural were in reality simply coincidences, some of them big coincidences but coincidences all the same. Everything I have experienced supernaturally could quite easily have occurred using entirely natural and rational explanations. It's all been one big waste. I am pissed off in a very big way. I have allowed myself to have been duped.
That's my OP for what it's worth.
WL.
I have recently come to the vivid realization that I have spent the best part of my life talking to thin air, to the walls, to the sky you name it and have basically wasted the precious time I have on this planet doing so.Religion and associated spiritualities have brought me no joy except for in the initial stages of getting into them.
I have surrounded myself with quite horrible people who were never friends and were only there with the proviso I remain unquestioning which I was never able to do. There were always questions. In the end that's all there were. Questions with more questions to follow with no satisfactory answers to be had.
I collapsed recently with severe chest pains and I thought now might be a good time for God to show up. I asked fervently for God to show me some sign of his/her/their/its existence yet as always 'God' remained completely silent. It was then I was struck with 2 notions. Either God isn't here and never has been or God is here but doesn't give a flying f*ck about me. Either way I'm alone in the situation.
It was after when I was recovering that I realized much of the stress in my life has come from my religious life and all of the things I put down to the supernatural were in reality simply coincidences, some of them big coincidences but coincidences all the same. Everything I have experienced supernaturally could quite easily have occurred using entirely natural and rational explanations. It's all been one big waste. I am pissed off in a very big way. I have allowed myself to have been duped.
That's my OP for what it's worth.
WL.
